Serendipity

so, have you ever prayed for someone fervently and faithfully and never really gotten to see what came of it? i have -many many times! and it always discouraged me, because i felt like i might just be wasting my time. i mean, what if this person never came to be in close fellowship with Jesus? why did i bother? well, folks. because i am not God. it is not for me to judge who is worthy of my prayers. God puts someone on my heart, i better pray- because amazing things happen. Here is my example: we will call her TW. she was in my world history class my junior year. she was smart, beautiful, popular, a cheerleader- everything that had terrorized me at my previous school(except thje smart part- i had that too!) Yet, God kept prompting me to reach out to her- and pray for her. she was never mean to me like the girls in RI had been, but she was not often very nice either. she had one of those personalities that playfully made fun of everyone- including herself. i liked her a lot,ached to be her friend, but despite being older, i was intimidated. i kept praying for her, though i never really saw any change in her...i felt defeated. well, that year and the next wore on,and i prayed for her every time she crossed my mind. over the 5 years since i have graduated, i have prayed for her a few times when i thought about it...but not too much. well, the other day, as i was reading the blog of my dearest high school girlfriend, i came across a comment by someone whose first name was the same as TW's (it is a very unique name!) and my heart skipped more thanone beat! i read her blog, tears in my eyes- this girl knew jesus in a way even i had never dreamed for her! Amazing! God is so faithful, He is so amazing beyond our comprehension. and although we are across the globe, i feel like now- as sisters in Christ- we can bulid that friendship i dreamed of all those years ago!

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Well. this was a great and eventful weekend, but i am really glad to be starting a brand new week! at the end of the week i get to finish my Christmas shopping. I love my Husband, and i cannot wait to give him his gifts. i am also really excited to give all my other loved ones their gifts.... :-) God has blessed us so much and really is teaching me to appreciate those around me. Scott amazes me every day with the way he loves me, takes care of me and wants to make me happy. He treats me like a princess all the time- what an amazing reflection of God's love for me. I am really thankful for all my siblings, both by blood and marriage. They all bless me in dfferent ways and i would never trade one of them! I am feeling pretty good, despite a weird night of sleep...i did not end up working out much over the weekend, unfortunately i was too sore from last thursday and fridays workouts...but i plan on making up for that big time this week! i am so excited about finishing my weight loss goals this winter. i just can't wait to feel healthy and even more like myself again! it's been hard living under this layer of squoosh that holds me back- i don't mean that in the sense that the fat makes me ugly, but along with the chubbiness there have come things like being ashamed of how i look ,and physical sluggishness that hold me back from being who i really am. so i am looking forward to getting past all that and becoming the real me! my current goal is to get into some size 10 pants by Christmas! then i am giving myself another month to get down to an 8 and then by valentines day i want to be a 6. then i will just focus on toning and sculpting the rest of the way so i can be at my very best in time for our vacation in May! i know all that sounds like a lot, but remember that on March 1 when i started trying to lose weight i measured a size 18. by june 9 i was down to an 8. so losing 3 sizes between now and Valentine's day is no big deal! and i just can't wait to have the rest of my spark Back! and with god as my personal trainer- i will be in the best spiritual shape of my life too! i want to thank all of you who are reading this for caring and praying for me, and know that i love you and am praying for you too! talk more soon!

Amazing Feeling

Okay, so I have been on the meds for two and a half weeks now. Gosh, that sounds like I am a nut job- but anyway....I really am starting to feel better. I guess I was skeptical, especially when not a lot happened the first 2 weeks. I started sleeping better, but that was about it. Everyone says that's a big good thing, but I was looking for more than that- like maybe an end to panic attacks...Well, I have only had 1 or 2 big ones, which is a lot less than before, so maybe I should stop being so grumpy...And I have only been on this dosage for a few days, so I guess patience is in order... haha. I suppose I really started to notice yesterday. I do not know how long it has been since I had a really good day. But yesterday was darn near perfection. I got up perfectly, I ate perfectly, I worked out really hard, I took the perfect shower, put on the perfect pink velour sweatsuit,I had the perfect afternoon rest time(very important after the perfect workout) and then my perfect husband came home, and after the perfect amount of unwinding time, we went to the mall and I got the PERFECT winter coat,and the perfect deal on some really cool clothes! (The coat was originally $150, but it was on sale for $99- that's really good already, right? ahh, but it gets so much better! I had gotten a coupon in the mail for $60 off a purchase of $150 or more, so... I spent some time looking for things to get with the other $51 and came up with a pair of really cool embellished jeans and a green velvet skirt.well, when she rang it up, it only came to $124...hmmm apparently, the jeans, which I had thought were $40, were really $10! So, I got another cool pair of jeans, another really cute skirt, and a pair of underwear. So...For a total of $354 worth of clothes, I paid $90! It was like they took $60 off my coat and gave me all the other stuff free!) the only slight disappointment came when we went by payless to get my Christmas shoes and found out they didn't have them- but that's ok, more fun for today! I don't believe the meds have suddenly made everything okay in my life. But they have removed a lot of the obstacles in the way of things being okay. Yesterday I felt like I could accomplish anything, and I did a lot. Unfortunately I have a lot to catch up on... a lot of living I haven't been doing, a lot of work that's been left undone. But I know that god is bigger than the tasks that lie ahead, and that He will be rollin' up His sleeves alongside me and "gittin-r-dun". And that comforts me so much! Amazing how less than three weeks ago I was up all night and sleeping all day and felt like doing nothing at all- and now, here I am wide awake at 6 AM after an amazing night's sleep- ready to start my day! Praise the Lord! Later, Y'all!