A prayer...

Father~ I am a little afraid. not because i think You won't give me what i need, but because i am afraid what i need may be different than what i want. i want my will and my desired to line up with yours. all that siad, i ask you to give scott this job. we both feel like you lined everything up perfectly for it, and so in that sense, i hav peace. but alas, i am human, and have so much difficulty trusting that my needs will be met. faather-i ask that you will continue to bless us like you always hqave, and enable us to do you will so that we may glorify you with our every thought, word, and action. let ou lives be a reflection of you as we strive to serve you. remove from our hearts and minds any fears and help us trust you. Okay, so scott didn't et the job. should i pretend like i am okay with that? should i pretend like it makessense and i saw it coming/ Father, i am so confused. i don't know what to think or how to feel about anything. i felt like you had it all lined up. i guess you bdid. just not the way we thought. i know that you have omething way better for us, but i can't fathom what it is right now. maybe that's as it should be. Father, just give me peace elp me to trust you that you have our best interest at heart. these things matter so little in the long run, father, and we just wanna glorify you. heal my heartbreak, Father.please.

Today's The Day...I Hope....

Okay, so it's Finally Friday!!! Today is the day we are supposed to find out for certain about this job. so i have decided, to help with the chilling out on my part, to list th reason's i feel like this is God's perfect timing and Scott is gonna get this job.

1. The car broke down and God immediately provided a new one.
2. Scott decided to actively look for a new job, and th next day this was listed...
3. He has applied for a few othe jobs and not even gotten a call back- this one they called right away
4. they had 50 applicants, and he was one of only 3 they interviewed.
5. God has given both of us a good feeling about this
6. God knows what we need...

So i think i'm going to jut chill... or try to....

Patience....and trust. Hmmm...

So today God is teaching me patience. Scott applied for a job two weeks ago tomorrow. Not just any job, either-nope- it's like his dream Job. Yeah, so...he turned in his application on a thursday. on the following tuesday -yes, that's two business days later- he got a call asking him to come for an interview the next Monday. Scott has applied for a few other jobs, and we never ever heard anything. and frim what we have heard, the County takes forever to do anything, so this was a huge surprise. Then, Scott goes to his interview this monday, and he finds out that 50 people applied for this job-and they interviewed.....THREE! First, that says a lot about Scott- that out of 50 people, they saw him as one of the only three people they wanted to consider for this job. That's pretty good. Right? so he said he felt like the interview went really well. like he did well, and he had fun. he likes to interview. So then he tells me that he will find out on friday. Wow! that's soon! i couldn't believe how soon! HMPH! i had no idea how LONG four days is-or can be! I thought it would just fly! Again, HMPH!!! Well, today is wednesday, so it's been just under two days. i am so nervous! i mean, i know money cannot buy us happiness and all that, but it will provide us with some security so we can live and minister not so hand to mouth ...i know God has the best for us, and i know it will all work out just fine, but at this moment i am just so afraid he won't get the job. it would be easy not to have my hopes so set if it were not between Scott and only 2 others. the statistics of it are what makes it so tense. i know that i am supposed to be learning both patience and trust right now but it is really hard! Father, give me Your peace and teach me to trust that You have Your best in store for us.