Tuesday, October 10, 2006

For the first time ...

...every word in this song means something real to me. (Blessed be Your Name, in the land that is plentiful/where Your Streams of abundance flow/Blessed be Your name/and blessed be Your name, when i'm found in the desert place/though i walk through the wilderness/blessed be Your name//every blessing You pour out i'll turn back to praise/and when the darkness closes in , Lord/still i will say/Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be Your name/blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be Your glorious name//Blessed be Your name when the sun's shining down on me/when the world's all as it should be/blessed be Your name/ and blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering/though there's pain in the offerring/ blessed be Your name//Every blessing You pour out i'll turn back to praise/when the darkness closes in Lord/ Still i will say/ Blessed be the name of the Lord/Blessed be Your name/blessed be the name of the Lord/ Blessed be Your glorious name// You give and take away/You give and take away/ But my heart will choose to say /Blessed be Your name!!!) I remember singing that song and wondering if in the desert place or on the road marked with sufferring could i really praise God. did i love Him and trust Him enough to know that His plan was far better than mine and remember that when i was really hurting? until yesterday it was all hypothetical really. Not anymore. I have lost loved ones before, and it was sad, but the loss of a child is something completely different- even if it is a child you never even met. i was still a mother- for a brief time, and i loved this child with all of my heart and wanted nothing more in this world than to protect my little one from every harm. And i think i got my first taste of one of the pains of motherhood- no matter how badly you want to protect your child- you can't! you can do everything "right" and sometimes it is just out of your control. But it is never ever out of HIS control. God knew form the moment this child was concieved what would happen, and although i don't understand it, He has a plan to use it for my good and His glory. So, because of that knowledge, which i am prayerfully converting into belief, i can, on this "desert road of suffering" Still say : BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD!!!!! In this world, The love of God is my oasis!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

i'm only a teenager, but gods done some amazeing things for my famly.
that songs one of my faves, i learnt it at celebrate and new dawn.look them up!their amazeing.

Anonymous said...

blessed be the NAME OF THE LORD.as you shared,this song truly shows how God is caring for us and is a oasis in the desert of struggles. it relates to many of us.. especially for me,for whom god has shown HIS enduring love and hold me with consoling hand..lifting me up froma all the trials.