frustrated and soo excited

Father~ how can i be sfo excited and happy flor others, yet feel so sorry for myself? why do i have to make this about me? Father, i just want to feel loved. will you make me feel loved? will you show me that none of my insecurities matter- just that you love me and i am yours? father! i cry out to you in my helplessness! help me die to self and live for you! also, thanks for what you are doing ! i ask your blessing over it and your guidance for it. the world's odds are set so high against it, but if you are for us-who could even try to be against us? thank you, Abba. amen