Can you?

Can you love someone you have never met? Can imagining their sweet face make you weak in the knees? Can just the hope of meeting them brighten up your whole day? Can you devote a good chunk of your time to preparing for them- even though you don't yet know when they are coming? I think you can. Whoever this little person turns out to be- Jackson or Lexi - i am already completely in love. I know i have a friend or family member or two who thinks i am a little crazy, but i just know that God has me in this place and i need to embrace the woman that He is creating me to be. I have said this before, many many times- just a matter of 8-10 weeks ago i was resolutely not ready for motherhood- maybe in a couple years....That's what i told everyone. But then God put this desire for motherhood in my heart, this sense that finally the gifts He has blessed me with would all come together to be used in this one role... My voice to sing my children lullabies....My compassion to dry their tears and understand their hurts... My intelligence to teach them to use their minds as best they can...My imagination to not let them know i am trying to educate them(:-D)... My creativity to make childhood always fun and exciting...My love of people to make our home a friendly one for kids and adults alike...i just know this is what i was created to be- the most exciting, rewarding, and yes, demanding job in the world- A mother! Abba, prepare me mind, body and soul for this- cultivate in me a mothers heart and help me to look to You in all things. You are everything.